Vertaki

Hello everyone.

I know that I've been gone for some time and only pop back once and a while. This will be changing from now on. I intend to start coming back over the next few months and right now I am trying to wrap up everything that I still owe people. I have had a really bumpy fist full of years and I think the worst is now behind me. As an update, I have moved out of my apartment (which was small and terrible.) The new place I am in allows me to have a craft room. A real room that's just for art so I am no longer squatting on the floor somewhere in a corner or sharing my computer desk with my art desk (that being the only desk that could fit in the room besides a bed.) I still have spinal problems and that seems to be with me for the rest of my life. However, I understand my limitations now and can easily work around them. I no longer have to work a 40 hour job that takes my energy, what little I had, away. I also no longer have numbness in my hand and so I don't have the dropsies anymore.(which I am very thankful for because I ruined many things just because my hand would suddenly just drop stuff.) It feels good to be writing this journal. To be honest, in those years that are now behind me, I struggled with some heavy depression. I started loosing my interest in art because it caused me pain to push myself with the injury I have after a long day at work. The weekend always ended up being about healing or sometimes staying in bed to cry because I just didn't want to wake up to the pain for another empty day. I understand it's a common response to chronic pain and a lot of people are going through worse than I am. But all of that is behind me now and over the last 4 months I have really started turning my life around for the better. I am really happy with my new studio and I have been working on art EVERY SINGLE DAY. And you know what?? I love it. I love that I have time again. I love having room to create. I am happy again. So anyways, I guess this is a life update to anyone who wondered what happened or where I went. 

Anyways! To the important stuff! I really do intend on returning into the social media spotlight. I plan to start posting work again and possibly return to commissions(though rare). But not until I get everything that I owe to the people I owe it.
I am currently wrapping up 2 major commissions. One for Escaron and the other for Kirinthecoffee (I am not good with names but those spellings look correct based off my recollection.) I also recall that I think I owe a $25 digital sketch to... drachlehur? and mamalucia... You know who you are. Beyond that, my memory is hazy but if we had an open trade or a minor art thing together, please remind me. I'd really like to clear up my plate honestly and leave no hurt feelings. I do recall I have a half trade with Torntethers out there. Anyways. I am looking forward to coming back. I will be cleaning up my DA over this next month as I prepare for my return. 

Additionally! I have a Tumblr and a Patreon 
I update my Patreon very often and I will occasionally ship doll prototypes out to my higher tier patrons to keep and optionally give me feed back for what I need to change.. I currently only have 2 patrons so I just sent them both a small doll prototype for a project I have brewing as a thank you because they have been with me for years now. My goal is to start doing stop motion but I need more backers to really dig into it. If I can get enough patrons I'd like to do random giveaways of artwork 2D and 3D as well as tutorials... but I know all of this will take time.
As for Tumblr, It's updated more then DA but it's still kinda dusty. I'll try to be better. Eventually I will return to twitch streaming but that's even further out.

I think I summed up everything I wanted to catch up on yea?

Update #1
Gaara is back at home now with a bunch of antibiotics. I have been syringe feeding him food daily as well as the antibiotics. He still keeps his eyes closed most of the time but he has started to occasionally lift himself up and reposition himself a few inches every now and again which is very good! He gets his antibiotics twice a day and his eye ointment twice a day. I will keep periodic updates over the next month of his antibiotics.


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Today has been quite a bad day. My beardie Gaara is gravely ill and is spending time at the vet while they try to save him. Gaara has been with me now for about 10 years and it is never easy to watch something you love slowly fade away due to illness. The vet bill thusfar has trickled up to the $400.00 range. And though I cannot easily afford it, I paid the bill because Gaara is family. I am posting this to let friends, and stranger alike, know so that I may ask for your well wishes that he might pull through and get better. Please keep him in your thoughts, he means the world to me and I am keeping him in mine.

If anyone wishes to help with his vet bills that is very kind and appreciated. Donations can be sent to my PayPal: Karen@molalla.net

I will keep my DA up to date
Thank you to anyone who sends him well wishes. He needs them right now.

Looking back to some fond memories of him

www.twitch.tv/vertaki

Today is working on wings for a stop motion doll and then some parts for a commission 

Today is gonna be a bunch of random parts and pieces to multiple things. Including but not limited to: Sculpting, sanding, wefting and wire work with perhaps some epoxy work.

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Over the next few months I'm going to try very hard to stream my art at least for an hour or so after work each day. Now im positive its not gonna happen every day because my job can call for over time at the drop of a hat and im also doing some personal physical therapy at a local gym due to my spine injury. However I want to mentally aim for every day and fill in with what im capable of at the time. I do not know if its getting better or worse but I really want to try and make it better because it's hindering my art (ESPECIALLY 2D traditional) far to much. I can't work as long as I used to and some days I just cant work at all. 

I will be working on both of my Doll commission here and there as they are both far over due (But not forgotten!!) as well as trying to finish the 2D Traditional dragon trade I took on ages ago that's been sitting at 90% complete for WAY to long. I will also be working on some personal projects here and there between them. ( All the while having Black Desert run in the background so I can level my horses <3 ) Feel free to come join the stream! 

A good friend of mine is in trouble, She needs help from anyone willing to offer a hand.


Please Read! Please Help save my Family! (Update3)***Read Updates at the bottom
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Hi guys,
Im not sure how to do this but I try. Some of you know me fairly well, some of you know me a little, and some dont know me at all. I ask, no, I plead that you take your time to click the link below and read it whomever you are. It wont take that long, but it will mean everything to me and my family.
Some of you know or at least have a hunch that my living situation is very tough, Ive mentioned it but never told what it really is about. Ive been scared to share, felt ashamed, felt its my own fault, felt I should be strong enough to fix it myself. Somehow, in some way. But Ive tried everything, my whole family has tried everything but it keep failing and our strengh is running out. Ive never liked begging for help, it feel wrong to bother others. But things are spinning completely out of hand, my family is suffering badly for years and it only get wors